I am… doing a restart.
So I came up with the idea of starting a blog over a year ago. I bought my domain name, got myself a host server/server host, etc. Even bought a ready made blog template/theme. (It really doesn’t matter if I am not using the correct terminology.) Spoke to a few friends about doing my blog and all but one were positive and receptive. So why did I focus on that one negative, quite bitchy and, if I think about it, ignorant view?
Well, when you have no self-esteem and have spent the larger part of the last decade being put through the emotional wringer and having your confidence chipped away, it’s just easier and let’s face it, less stressful, to listen to the negative voice.
Pretty crap huh?
Unfortunately that’s what a lot of us woman do. I am sure there are men out there who have experienced the same or similar, however I am focusing on Women right now. The thing is, we are not just doing ourselves a disservice, we are also teaching our children, that it is okay to let other people’s fears and ignorance stop us from being all that we can be.
Well guess what?
It isn’t okay.
My daughter was very moved the other day by a truth she heard. “Graveyard’s are the richest places on earth.
They are full of idea’s and creation’s that people were so afraid to take a chance on.”
So they took who know’s what kind of amazing things to the grave with them. I am not going to be one of those people.
I came up with the idea of doing this blog for 2 main reasons.
The first, was because the area that I was looking for help and advice in, was very sparse. I was going through a challenging period with my eldest and Dad was not very helpful, as he didn’t really remember much of his teen years. Also, most of the information seemed to come predominantly from the U.S. I wanted and needed to link into experiences of parents in the U.K. and then share what I found with others.
Second reason. I wanted to write. I have always love the idea of being a writer and for the longest time
I have had an intense love affair with the written word. Sadly again, I let my huge lack of self-esteem prevent me from following my dreams.
So I have spent a bit of time on me. Not all my conversations have been pleasant, in fact some of them have been quite abrupt, but that is part of who I am. So in order to stop those abrupt “pep talks”, I have sat down in front of my Tab S3 and am refusing to do anything else until this post is done and on my blog.
I am taking a page out of twenty-something Tracy’s life and jumping right in.
The amount of work that I have done will just have to be enough to start with. No more waiting until I have learnt how to work WordPress or what SEO optimisation is. All of that will come with time. I need to start doing what I used to, what I teach my children. Just try it. It doesn’t matter if you make mistakes, that is how you learn and how you help others.
Besides, the beginning of everything is pretty much a blank page, until that is, you start writing or drawing on that page.
Will what I write about be of interest to you?
Maybe,maybe not, but I am not going to let the unknown hold me back anymore.
Let’s just start this journey together and see where it takes us.
I take my inspiration from my village and this is going to be my communal fire-pit, where I hope to share stories from various villagers. I will write about my experiences with life, death, marriage, children, cooking, education, crafts, art and anything else that I find interesting. A lot of it will probably be based on my views and opinions, but that is the beauty of this being my blog. I get a lot of idea’s and inspiration from what I witness day to day. I have a very connective thought process, which sometimes works at lightning speed.
So buckle up and enjoy the ride.